Current mood:

pissed off

What the bleep?
I'm angry..for a lot of reasons, I'm angry because I feel that every form of patients that I have is pretty much sucked out of my body. I'm angry because I work a lot and if I want the things I want...it just has to be that way. I'm angry because people don't understand that and just expect me to have some sort of rosy outlook on everything which is certainly not the freaking case.

And the ironic thing is that I am happy, life couldn't get much better, so why do i feel so freaking crummy?

Because I'm being stretched 8 different ways and no one seems to understand this. I talk to my mother..she basically gives me the attitude to shut up and buck up cause shes been "tired" from working this way for years. I talk to my friends, there advice is just to quit but im sure they don't have extra money laying around for me.

Alot of the stretching has is caused by me, and I've accepted that. I hardly ever complain. but to be insensitive or to even question my character in anyway is uncalled for, it's hurtful and it fucking pisses me off.

I need a martini..